Imitation Of A Woman To Love

by Casey Dienel

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Paul Cooke This was my top album for 2017 and it deserves so much love and support, I was listening to it over and over again, so awesome, I'm looking forward to the next album.... Favorite track: True Affection.
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Nancy_Nancy I've been thinking about you for four days! )) and about your music, it did not go out of my head and especially the track : Nancy ! Very amazing album ! good thanks you !!!
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litmajor_collection Casey Dienel has been someone I've had stuck on my radar for years, now, and this new album does not disappoint. Groovy, icy, and full of heart. Favorite track: Thrasher.
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    I'm trilled to present my new album, 'Imitation Of A Woman To Love,' out May 18 2017 on my label Paddle Your Own Canoe Society.
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1.
I finally dislodged The gorgon head of heartbreak Where the swollen bulb once grew Now cool detachment takes its place I’m up with the dahlias To see the lake boil under a rising sun No one around for miles I take off my suit I take myself in my hands Until I come Ooh and it feels So new and soft Wanting this moment all to myself Like the last bar of chocolate They say we shall be given all the love we deserve When the waitress came back with the check I thought “is that all that I’m worth?” it's a non-linear narrative disembarking a plane I saw you plastered on a billboard inside JFK no one knows the real you you say CHORUS Even at our worst I loved you above all the rest Behind the red curtain where we no longer belong to them The tides they pull us in all directions As we perform love’s imperfection (as we perform) With true affection True affection Reeking of eau de privilege I haven’t showered in a week Isolation once thought provincial Now a rarified luxury I might use summer as a verb I might play a little croquet I see a copse atop a hill And say a little prayer It’ll stay that way Pull over your cherry red truck So I can empty out my confetti guts We spent what I make in a week in just one night On cocktails and small plates at Biwa Life’s a non-linear narrative My mask is peeling at the corners You drove us through a blizzard and skid into a field of corn “I think I see the real you,” you said. One sided as a side show act That week together was one of the best in my life So this is how the other half lives? Is this how it feels being alive? CHORUS Even at our worst I loved you above all the rest Behind the red curtain where we no longer belong to them The tides they pull us in all directions As we perform love’s imperfection with true affection Even at our worst I loved you above all the rest.
2.
High Times 06:33
You were on my mind when I pulled  into Palm Springs Ah! But you disappeared by the time he undressed me I don’t recall his name sounded like Adam, maybe it was John He was doing the butterfly In the deep end and I “The fly in aspic” So clean cut and tan All American Slightly older but no wiser than me CHORUS Ooh I know how you think girls get wet dreaming about you all the day, all the day long But ooh when someone new catches my eye I know I’m not yet done having my fun I’m looking for Mr. Right Here Now Mr. Right Mr. Right Mr. Right Mr. Right Here Now I can be so forgiving When I know my time is limited He said some things that seemed borderline basic But when he took off his shirt I acquit him Mmmm, not too deep down inside lives a man who behaves Like Rock Hudson on Spring Break And this hotel’s like coming down from a cleanse After a week living on juice You’ll only want cake CHORUS Ooh I know how you think girls get wet dreaming about you all the day, all the day long But ooh when someone new catches my eye I know I’m not yet done having my fun I’m looking for Mr. Right Here Now Mr. Right Mr. Right Mr. Right Mr. Right Here Now He balked when I asked for a chardonnay “too girly a request for a man to make”  I slid my key into his hand “if you wanna get lost find me in 103" in 103 in 103 If you wanna get lost find me in 103 in 103 in 103 if you wanna get lost you know where you can find me I'm looking for Mr. Right Mr. Right Mr. Right Here Now Mr. Right Mr. Right Mr. Right Here Now
3.
Nancy 05:47
Nancy braids my hair Stirs the milk into my tea I was a skeptic in my last life Now i’m living out the sequence of a dream I forgot Thru the good and the bad times Thru the good and the bad guys Dirt on her feet and in her hands The love that grows and mends Changes shape, never binds CHORUS Take my hand Take me to a place I’ve never been She’s a zephyr dancing on the edge of the world Where they’re growing Figs persimmon and peach CHORUS Like a zephyr dancing at the end of the world burning up in the haze of the bleeding sun We ride through the Marigny newly gentrified while the second line marches by are we living or slowly dying? This land is not my land Sunburned I hold the traitor hand One by birth and two by circumstance I’ve never loved anyone more or felt so alone Thru the boom and the bust times Thru the barons and bread lines Like the cities of the dead We sprawl and sink into the swamp But til then here we are CHORUS Like a zephyr dancing on the edge of the world burning up in the haze of the bleeding sun like a zephyr dancing at the end of the world We ride through the Marigny newly gentrified While the second line marches by Are we living or slowly dying? The cities change their face  Til no one’s left to say If things were ever better off before CHORUS Take my hand Take me to a place i’ve never been She’s a zephyr dancing on the edge of the world Where they’re growing Figs persimmon and peach Like a zephyr dancing at the end of the world Burning up in the haze of the bleeding sun Take my hand, come on and take my hand take me to a place i’ve never been, I’ve never been She’s a zephyr dancing on the edge of the world Where they’re growing figs persimmon and figs persimmon and figs persimmon and peach
4.
"Bitch must be crazy" They say when they think that they made you And now get to break a piece off Invite you to lunch at their salon To try pastel child size dresses on One laced like a straightjacket Couldn't fit over my breasts Wool skirt like an earthworm casing wouldn't zip up around my hips I didn’t say a word Swore not to complain Held my arms Christlike while they made the best  of my silhouette My complicated silhouette My complicated silhouette I got a complicated silhouette CHORUS My m-my my my my my M-my my my my mind don’t come in sample size “Bitch must be crazy" He said i was pretty and thought it was his turn to break a piece off Gave him a kiss Told him i felt nervous When I said “no thank you” he refused to stop Big nose, butterface Pray for skin so thick nothing penetrates I didn’t move an inch Swore i’d never say a thing Shut my eyes, imagining i was floating away from my silhouette I got a Complicated silhouette Complicated silhouette I got a complicated silhouette do you want what’s left? CHORUS My m-my my my my my M-my my my my mind Don’t come in sample size No it don’t come in sample size My summer goal was to go From a 6 to a 4 til 2 was too big All i wanted was to be a 10 Diet-coke, gluten free  Salad bar, skip the lunch Calorie count, binge  That’s when the shame hits me   “Bitch must be crazy" I said to the mirror I spent my last dollar defending myself Ran myself ragged with something so jagged The knife the world sharpened I turned on myself Full cups, full hips Where’d i leave my confidence? Disregard my intention Life’s a show without intermission Too curt, too quick Well shit, Have at me You want what’s left? Better up and hurry for my Complicated silhouette complicated silhouette I got a complicated silhouette I got a complicated silhouette Do you want what’s left? My m-my my my my my M-my my my my mind Don’t come in sample size No it don’t come in sample size No it don’t! My summer goal was to go From a 6 to a 4 til 2 was too big All I wanted was to be a 10 Diet-coke, gluten free  Salad bar, skip the lunch Calorie count, binge  That’s when the shame hits me Maybe then I’d love me Maybe then I’d love me Maybe then I would love me
5.
SINCERELY INSINCERELY MINE YOU WROTE I LOVE YA WITH A Y AND AN A I’M NOT FLUENT YET IN MINNESOTA NICE I’M THREE HOURS AHEAD AND A THOUSAND MILES BEHIND TODAY I SAW THE SEVERED HEAD OF A GOAT SWINGING FROM A POWER LINE  ON A SHOELACE IN PARK SLOPE I’LL NEVER KNOW WHAT IT WAS THAT MADE ME LOOK UP MY FAITH IS A GLASS I TIP OVER MEANING TO TIP IT BACK CHORUS LIKE A MUSTANG, BABY RUNNING AROUND RUNNING AROUND RUNNING WILD LIKE A MUSTANG, SUGAR  NEVER GONNA NEVER EVER GONNA NEVER EVER EVER GONNA BREAK IN YOU’LL NEVER EVER BREAK ME IN YOU’LL NEVER EVER EVER GONNA BREAK ME IN GREEN ROVER HUGS THE DEVIL’S CURSE THE ROAD WAS ALL CLEAR WHEN I STARTED MAKING THE TURN EMPTY THE CONTENTS OF MY LIFE OUT ON MY FRONT LAWN, THEY’RE FOR SALE YOU SAY YOU’LL NEVER BE A SELL OUT FROM THE VIP LOUNGE YOU WANT TO KNOW WHAT I’VE GOT ON AND WATCH AS I SLOWLY TAKE IT ALL OFF WHEN THE CROWD MELTS AWAY AND YOUR DEFENSES ARE DOWN YOU’RE NEVER READY WHEN THE BIG WAVE COMES HERE COMES THAT EXTRA LIFE SAILING OVER THE TOP OF THE TREES I TURN THE CAR AROUND I WANNA GO ON A LONG DRIVE YES,YES CHORUS RUNNING AROUND RUNNING AROUND RUNNING LIKE A MUSTANG, BABY RUNNING AROUND RUNNING AROUND RUNNING LIKE A MUSTANG, SUGAR
6.
Kiss me on my neck in the backseat of your car  Windows up fogging up parked off exit 15 I don’t care who sees Every one of your friends already know I’m the dirty little secret you been holding Onto too long Take me to the beach, you and me, one last ride My hair's a mess, dress undone, tangled up in you One last time oo you’re sincerely insincerely mine She don't know where you’ve been spending the night Once I thought you were the love of my life Love of my life I can’t love you in the condition i’m in I’m not blind any more I can’t give you all the things she will I know you too well now CHORUS You only want me when you’re lonely You only care when you’re feeling hurt Don’t come to me like I’m your rosebud I’m not your rosebud, I never was I’ll be running around running around running around I’ll be running around running around running around I’ll be running around running around I’m not your rosebud, never was Tell you what you want Not what you need to hear from me See you racing down that aisle now, I pray for her sake you don’t trip Though I can forgive you I could never forgive me  If I took you back in After all you've done to me When she asks “who is she to you?” Do you say “just a friend?" Do you cast me as Sada? “Two of us forever” painted on your chest You’re sincerely insincerely mine You write I love you with a Y and an A I’m three hours ahead and a thousand miles behind Thought you were the love of my life CHORUS You only want me when you’re lonely You only care when you’re feeling hurt Don’t come to me like i’m your rosebud I’m not your rosebud, never was I’ll be running around running around running around (not sweating it) I’ll be running around running around running around (not regretting it) I’ll be running around running around I’m not your rosebud anymore Pull me in closer (Pull me in, pull me in) Love me in the open (Love me in the open) Why can’t you pull me in closer? (Pull me in, pull me in) Love me in the open (Love me in the open) Why can’t you pull me in closer? Pull me in, pull me in Love me in the open Love me in the open Why can’t you pull me in closer? Pull me in pull me in Love in the open I’ll be running around running around I’ll be running around running around Running around running around running around running around running around running around
7.
Tom likes girls  who are chill and natural chill and natural, oh yeah that’s me We made out in the garage We were living with our parents Pushing 30 But in that moment Feeling 17   He gasped when he went south At the horror he found there I was more Effie Gray than Canadian Sphinx Ten late to meet him at the bar we’d agreed on Our mothers always thought we’d hit it off ALL AROUND THE PRETTY HOW TOWNS OF AMERICA GOOD GIRLS ARE SHAVING THEMSELVES FOR MARRIAGE CHORUS I feel like I’m inside of A slow motion free fall A slow motion free fall (Pause for the bass) Tom says he likes girls Who are down for whatever Down for whatever Yeah, that’s me When I got there his face was buried In his phone Where two young Asian girls Were taking turns riding on a Sybian machine Instead of registered shock I thought At least he’s into girls who know how to share I’m trying to be less selfish He said "it’s not that i’m turned off Just that i’ve become accustomed to girls like you shaving themselves for me" ALL AROUND THE PRETTY HOW TOWNS OF AMERICA GOOD GIRLS ARE SHAVING THEMSELVES FOR MARRIAGE CHORUS I feel like I’m inside of A slow emotion free fall A slow emotion free fall And I’m weightless in The wake of my mistakes, I’m in A slow motion free fall A slow motion free fall Tom says he likes girls Who are fit but still eat good Fuck but don’t need love Dirt on their tongues but never speak up Tom says he likes girls Who aren’t afraid to be feminine Afraid to be feminine Yeah, that’s me And I fall In a slow motion free fall In a slow motion free fall In a slow motion free fall In slow motion Slow motion 
8.
Thrasher 04:42
THEY SAY “THINGS'LL TURN YOUR WAY SHUT YOUR EYES AND SAY A PRAYER AND WHEN YOU LEAST EXPECT IT’LL COME TO YOU” HERE IT COMES FOR YOU THE YEARS CLICK BY FEELING LIKE A DAY YOU WEAR YOUR LIFE DOWN LIKE A SHOE YOU CAN TRADE IT FOR A NEW ONE TIL IT COMES TO YOU HERE IT COMES FOR YOU BIBLE BLACK SHEARING GLASS NO IDEA IF I WAS MOVING AHEAD OR TURNING BACK NOT FOR A MOMENT NOT FOR AN INSTANT DID I ASK  "IS IT TIME TO STOP?" CHORUS WHEN THE WAVE  (WHEN THE WAVE) PULLS ME UNDER (WHEN IT PULLS ME UNDER) I HOLD FAST TO MYSELF KEEP ON THRASHING HELLO! HELLO I’M IN THE DARK WATER ALONE! ALONE IN THE DARK WATER I’M IN THE DARK WATER I’M IN THE DARK WATER "SO YOU GOT A DREAM WHAT GOOD’S IT GONNA DO? CHUCK IT IN THE SEA, THEY SAY "PICTURES OR IT NEVER HAPPENED TO YOU" TIL IT COMES FOR YOU THE PEOPLE BUZZ AROUND BLEED INTO A BLUR NO REGARD FOR ANYTHING LIVING LIKE THE EARTH’S AN APPLE AND WHEN WE’RE THROUGH WE CAN START ANEW JUST UP AHEAD TURN MY HEAD TO THE LEFT SEE THE TAJ MAHAL SINKING LIKE ATLANTIS NOT FOR A MOMENT NOT FOR AN INSTANT DID I ASK “COULD THIS BE REAL?” CHORUS WHEN THE WAVE (WHEN THE WAVE) PULLS ME UNDER (WHEN IT PULLS ME UNDER) I HOLD FAST TO MYSELF, KEEP ON THRASHING HELLO? HELLO I’M IN THE DARK WATER ALONE, ALONE IN THE DARK WATER! I’M IN THE DARK WATER I’M IN THE DARK WATER HEMINGWAY FEELS  YEARS AGO CAN’T THINK HOW FAR I’VE LEFT AHEAD BONNIE I SHOULD KNOW BETTER, I KNOW I, I, I, I, I,  CHORUS WHEN THE WAVE PULLS ME UNDER I HOLD FAST TO MYSELF KEEP ON THRASHING WHEN THE WORLD TAKES MORE THAN YOU OFFERED HOLD FAST TO YOURSELF, REACH OUT, DON’T WAIT FOR IT TO COME TO YOU REACH OUT, DON’T WAIT HERE IT COMES FOR YOU HERE IT COMES FOR YOU REACH OUT, DON’T WAIT I’M IN THE DARK WATER I’M IN THE DARK WATER
9.
Paper Mache 04:32
When we're out on the road I've seen the way the game is played The women come The women go Your brothers get to stay I said I’d sooner change the game before the game changed me But it changed me It changed me It’s not like I’m the angel There’s mistakes you'll never know i made We go to bed with someone new The one in the mirror stays the same We’re both out there with our promises Made out of paper mache Saying we’ll cut our losses soon And praying we’ll be the lucky few CHORUS I PLAYED THEIR GAME NEVER LET IT SHOW WHEN IT WAS BREAKING ME BREAKING MY HEART I PLAYED THEIR GAME SO WELL I THOUGHT ONE DAY I'D FINALLY EARN MY TEN SECOND HEAD START It's a cheerleader they want, baby That’s my cue to pass on this rose Take the lines they planned to feed me give the understudy my role There’ll always be Someone pretty and young to replace us when they're done And they'll say They never meant us harm I think I’ve learned my lesson  CHORUS I PLAYED THEIR GAME NEVER LET IT SHOW WHEN IT WAS BREAKING ME BREAKING MY HEART I PLAYED THEIR GAME SO WELL I THOUGHT ONE DAY I'D FINALLY GET MY TEN SECOND HEAD START I PLAYED THEIR GAME EVEN WHEN IT HURT SO BAD I THOUGHT I COULDN’T MOVE ON I PLAYED THEIR GAME SO WELL I FOOLED MYSELF MORE THAN ONCE  INTO THINKING I’D WON THE GAME CHANGED ME [You can’t outrun ‘em all] THE GAME CHANGED ME [you can’t outrun ‘em all] THE GAME CHANGED ME [you can’t outrun ‘em all] THE GAME CHANGED ME [you can’t outrun ‘em all] THE GAME CHANGED ME

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Art Direction: Casey Dienel

Photography: Shervin Lainez

Set Design: Claire Karoff, Andrew Medlin
Hair and Makeup: Laura Mitchell

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released May 18, 2017

All synths, vocals, and programming by Casey Dienel unless otherwise noted

Produced by Casey Dienel at Ursula B in Brooklyn, NY and The Glades in Scituate, MA

Mixed by Matt LeMay at A Question Of Frequency in Brooklyn, NY

Mastered by Heba Kadry at Timeless Mastering

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Casey Dienel Scituate, Massachusetts

Casey Dienel is a producer, singer and songwriter who under her given name and the moniker White Hinterland has released 4 critically acclaimed full-length albums. Raised in New England she has spent the last ten years creating music Nylon Magazine describes as “wild, vicious, poetic, feminine, brash, and singular.” She divides her time between her studios in Scituate, MA and Brooklyn, NY. ... more

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