Imitation Of A Woman To Love

by Casey Dienel

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Art Direction: Casey Dienel

Photography: Shervin Lainez

Set Design: Claire Karoff, Andrew Medlin
Hair and Makeup: Laura Mitchell

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released May 18, 2017

All synths, vocals, and programming by Casey Dienel unless otherwise noted

Produced by Casey Dienel at Ursula B in Brooklyn, NY and The Glades in Scituate, MA

Mixed by Matt LeMay at A Question Of Frequency in Brooklyn, NY

Mastered by Heba Kadry at Timeless Mastering

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Casey Dienel is a producer, singer and songwriter who under her given name and the moniker White Hinterland has released 4 critically acclaimed full-length albums. Raised in New England she has spent the last ten years creating music Nylon Magazine describes as “wild, vicious, poetic, feminine, brash, and singular.” She divides her time between her studios in Scituate, MA and Brooklyn, NY. ... more

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Track Name: True Affection
I finally dislodged
The gorgon head of heartbreak
Where the swollen bulb once grew
Now cool detachment takes its place

I’m up with the dahlias
To see the lake boil under a rising sun
No one around for miles
I take off my suit
I take myself in my hands
Until I come

Ooh and it feels
So new and soft
Wanting this moment all to myself
Like the last bar of chocolate

They say we shall be given
all the love we deserve
When the waitress came back with the check
I thought
“is that all that I’m worth?”

it's a non-linear narrative
disembarking a plane
I saw you
plastered on a billboard
inside JFK
no one knows the real you
you say


CHORUS
Even at our worst
I loved you above all the rest
Behind the red curtain where we no longer belong to them

The tides they pull us in all directions
As we perform love’s imperfection
(as we perform)
With true affection
True affection

Reeking of eau de privilege
I haven’t showered in a week
Isolation once thought provincial
Now a rarified luxury

I might use summer as a verb
I might play a little croquet

I see a copse atop a hill
And say a little prayer
It’ll stay that way

Pull over your cherry red truck
So I can empty out my confetti guts
We spent what I make in a week in just one night
On cocktails and small plates at Biwa

Life’s a non-linear narrative
My mask is peeling at the corners
You drove us through a blizzard and skid into a field of corn
“I think I see the real you,” you said.

One sided as a side show act
That week together was one of the best in my life
So this is how the other half lives?
Is this how it feels being alive?

CHORUS
Even at our worst
I loved you above all the rest
Behind the red curtain
where we no longer belong to them

The tides they pull us in all directions
As we perform love’s imperfection
with true affection

Even at our worst
I loved you above all the rest.
Track Name: High Times
You were on my mind
when I pulled  into Palm Springs
Ah! But you disappeared by the time he undressed me
I don’t recall his name
sounded like Adam, maybe it was John
He was doing the butterfly
In the deep end and I
“The fly in aspic”
So clean cut and tan
All American
Slightly older but no wiser than me

CHORUS
Ooh I know how you think girls get wet
dreaming about you all the day, all the day long
But ooh when someone new catches my eye
I know I’m not yet done having my fun
I’m looking for Mr. Right Here Now

Mr. Right
Mr. Right
Mr. Right
Mr. Right Here Now

I can be so forgiving
When I know my time is limited
He said some things that seemed borderline basic
But when he took off his shirt I acquit him
Mmmm, not too deep down inside lives a man who behaves
Like Rock Hudson on Spring Break
And this hotel’s like coming down from a cleanse
After a week living on juice
You’ll only want cake

CHORUS
Ooh I know how you think girls get wet
dreaming about you all the day, all the day long
But ooh when someone new catches my eye
I know I’m not yet done having my fun
I’m looking for Mr. Right Here Now

Mr. Right
Mr. Right
Mr. Right
Mr. Right Here Now

He balked when I asked for a chardonnay
“too girly a request for a man to make” 
I slid my key into his hand
“if you wanna get lost find me in 103"

in 103
in 103
If you wanna get lost find me in 103
in 103
in 103
if you wanna get lost you know where you can find me

I'm looking for
Mr. Right Mr. Right Mr. Right Here Now
Mr. Right Mr. Right Mr. Right Here Now
Track Name: Nancy
Nancy braids my hair
Stirs the milk into my tea
I was a skeptic in my last life
Now i’m living out the sequence of a dream I forgot

Thru the good and the bad times
Thru the good and the bad guys
Dirt on her feet and in her hands
The love that grows and mends
Changes shape, never binds

CHORUS
Take my hand
Take me to a place I’ve never been
She’s a zephyr dancing on the edge of the world
Where they’re growing
Figs persimmon and peach

CHORUS
Like a zephyr dancing
at the end of the world
burning up in the haze of the bleeding sun

We ride through the Marigny
newly gentrified
while the second line marches by
are we living or slowly dying?

This land is not my land
Sunburned I hold the traitor hand
One by birth and two by circumstance
I’ve never loved anyone more or felt so alone

Thru the boom and the bust times
Thru the barons and bread lines
Like the cities of the dead
We sprawl and sink into the swamp
But til then here we are

CHORUS
Like a zephyr dancing
on the edge of the world
burning up in the haze of the bleeding sun
like a zephyr dancing
at the end of the world

We ride through the Marigny newly gentrified
While the second line marches by
Are we living or slowly dying?


The cities change their face 
Til no one’s left to say
If things were ever better off before

CHORUS
Take my hand
Take me to a place i’ve never been
She’s a zephyr dancing on the edge of the world
Where they’re growing
Figs persimmon and peach

Like a zephyr dancing at the end of the world
Burning up in the haze of the bleeding sun

Take my hand, come on and take my hand
take me to a place i’ve never been, I’ve never been
She’s a zephyr dancing on the edge of the world
Where they’re growing
figs persimmon and
figs persimmon and
figs persimmon and peach
Track Name: Complicated Silhouette
"Bitch must be crazy"
They say when they think that they made you
And now get to break a piece off
Invite you to lunch at their salon
To try pastel child size dresses on

One laced like a straightjacket
Couldn't fit over my breasts
Wool skirt like an earthworm casing wouldn't zip up around my hips

I didn’t say a word
Swore not to complain
Held my arms Christlike
while they made the best 
of my silhouette

My complicated silhouette
My complicated silhouette
I got a complicated silhouette


CHORUS
My m-my my my my my
M-my my my my mind
don’t come in sample size

“Bitch must be crazy"
He said i was pretty and thought it was his turn to break a piece off
Gave him a kiss
Told him i felt nervous
When I said “no thank you” he refused to stop

Big nose, butterface
Pray for skin so thick nothing penetrates

I didn’t move an inch
Swore i’d never say a thing
Shut my eyes, imagining i was floating away
from my silhouette
I got a
Complicated silhouette
Complicated silhouette
I got a
complicated silhouette
do you want what’s left?

CHORUS
My m-my my my my my
M-my my my my mind
Don’t come in sample size
No it don’t come in sample size

My summer goal was to go
From a 6 to a 4 til 2 was too big
All i wanted was to be a 10
Diet-coke, gluten free 
Salad bar, skip the lunch
Calorie count, binge 
That’s when the shame hits me
 

“Bitch must be crazy"
I said to the mirror
I spent my last dollar defending myself
Ran myself ragged with something so jagged
The knife the world sharpened I turned on myself

Full cups, full hips
Where’d i leave my confidence?
Disregard my intention
Life’s a show without intermission

Too curt, too quick
Well shit,
Have at me
You want what’s left?
Better up and hurry for my

Complicated silhouette
complicated silhouette
I got a
complicated silhouette
I got a
complicated silhouette
Do you want what’s left?

My m-my my my my my
M-my my my my mind
Don’t come in sample size
No it don’t come in sample size
No it don’t!

My summer goal was to go
From a 6 to a 4 til 2 was too big
All I wanted was to be a 10
Diet-coke, gluten free 
Salad bar, skip the lunch
Calorie count, binge 
That’s when the shame hits me

Maybe then I’d love me
Maybe then I’d love me
Maybe then I would love me
Track Name: Sincerely Insincerely
SINCERELY INSINCERELY MINE
YOU WROTE I LOVE YA WITH A Y AND AN A
I’M NOT FLUENT YET
IN MINNESOTA NICE
I’M THREE HOURS AHEAD
AND A THOUSAND MILES BEHIND

TODAY I SAW THE SEVERED HEAD OF A GOAT
SWINGING FROM A POWER LINE 
ON A SHOELACE IN PARK SLOPE
I’LL NEVER KNOW WHAT IT WAS THAT MADE ME LOOK UP
MY FAITH IS A GLASS
I TIP OVER
MEANING TO TIP IT BACK

CHORUS

LIKE A MUSTANG, BABY
RUNNING AROUND RUNNING AROUND RUNNING WILD
LIKE A MUSTANG, SUGAR 
NEVER GONNA NEVER EVER GONNA NEVER EVER EVER GONNA BREAK IN
YOU’LL NEVER EVER BREAK ME IN
YOU’LL NEVER EVER EVER GONNA BREAK ME IN


GREEN ROVER HUGS THE DEVIL’S CURSE
THE ROAD WAS ALL CLEAR WHEN I STARTED MAKING THE TURN
EMPTY THE CONTENTS OF MY LIFE OUT
ON MY FRONT LAWN, THEY’RE FOR SALE
YOU SAY YOU’LL NEVER BE A SELL OUT
FROM THE VIP LOUNGE

YOU WANT TO KNOW WHAT I’VE GOT ON
AND WATCH AS I SLOWLY TAKE IT ALL OFF


WHEN THE CROWD MELTS AWAY
AND YOUR DEFENSES ARE DOWN
YOU’RE NEVER READY
WHEN THE BIG WAVE COMES

HERE COMES THAT EXTRA LIFE
SAILING OVER THE TOP OF THE TREES

I TURN THE CAR AROUND
I WANNA GO
ON A LONG DRIVE

YES,YES


CHORUS

RUNNING AROUND RUNNING AROUND RUNNING
LIKE A MUSTANG, BABY
RUNNING AROUND RUNNING AROUND RUNNING
LIKE A MUSTANG, SUGAR
Track Name: Love Me In The Open
Kiss me on my neck in the backseat of your car 
Windows up fogging up parked off exit 15
I don’t care who sees
Every one of your friends already know
I’m the dirty little secret you been holding
Onto too long

Take me to the beach, you and me, one last ride
My hair's a mess, dress undone, tangled up in you
One last time

oo you’re sincerely insincerely mine
She don't know where you’ve been spending the night
Once I thought you were the love of my life
Love of my life

I can’t love you in the condition i’m in
I’m not blind any more
I can’t give you all the things she will
I know you too well now

CHORUS
You only want me when you’re lonely
You only care when you’re feeling hurt
Don’t come to me like I’m your rosebud
I’m not your rosebud, I never was
I’ll be running around
running around
running around
I’ll be running around
running around
running around
I’ll be running around
running around
I’m not your rosebud, never was

Tell you what you want
Not what you need to hear from me
See you racing down that aisle now,
I pray for her sake you don’t trip
Though I can forgive you I could never forgive me 
If I took you back in
After all you've done to me

When she asks “who is she to you?”
Do you say “just a friend?"
Do you cast me as Sada?
“Two of us forever” painted on your chest

You’re sincerely insincerely mine
You write I love you with a Y and an A
I’m three hours ahead and a thousand miles behind

Thought you were the love of my life

CHORUS
You only want me when you’re lonely
You only care when you’re feeling hurt
Don’t come to me like i’m your rosebud
I’m not your rosebud, never was
I’ll be running around
running around
running around
(not sweating it)

I’ll be running around
running around
running around
(not regretting it)

I’ll be running around
running around

I’m not your rosebud anymore


Pull me in closer
(Pull me in, pull me in)
Love me in the open
(Love me in the open)
Why can’t you pull me in closer?
(Pull me in, pull me in)
Love me in the open
(Love me in the open)
Why can’t you pull me in closer?
Pull me in, pull me in
Love me in the open
Love me in the open
Why can’t you pull me in closer?
Pull me in pull me in
Love in the open

I’ll be running around running around
I’ll be running around running around
Running around running around
running around running around
running around running around
Track Name: Chill And Natural (Album Version)
Tom likes girls 
who are chill and natural
chill and natural, oh yeah that’s me
We made out in the garage
We were living with our parents
Pushing 30
But in that moment
Feeling 17  
He gasped when he went south
At the horror he found there
I was more Effie Gray than Canadian Sphinx
Ten late to meet him at the bar we’d agreed on
Our mothers always thought we’d hit it off

ALL AROUND THE PRETTY HOW TOWNS OF AMERICA
GOOD GIRLS ARE SHAVING THEMSELVES FOR MARRIAGE

CHORUS
I feel like I’m inside of
A slow motion free fall
A slow motion free fall

(Pause for the bass)

Tom says he likes girls
Who are down for whatever
Down for whatever
Yeah, that’s me
When I got there his face was buried
In his phone
Where two young Asian girls
Were taking turns riding on a Sybian machine
Instead of registered shock
I thought
At least he’s into girls who know how to share
I’m trying to be less selfish
He said "it’s not that i’m turned off
Just that i’ve become accustomed
to girls like you shaving themselves for me"


ALL AROUND THE PRETTY HOW TOWNS OF AMERICA
GOOD GIRLS ARE SHAVING THEMSELVES FOR MARRIAGE

CHORUS
I feel like I’m inside of
A slow emotion free fall
A slow emotion free fall

And I’m weightless in
The wake of my mistakes, I’m in
A slow motion free fall
A slow motion free fall

Tom says he likes girls
Who are fit but still eat good
Fuck but don’t need love
Dirt on their tongues but never speak up

Tom says he likes girls
Who aren’t afraid to be feminine
Afraid to be feminine
Yeah, that’s me

And I fall
In a slow motion free fall
In a slow motion free fall
In a slow motion free fall
In slow motion
Slow motion 
Track Name: Thrasher
THEY SAY
“THINGS'LL TURN YOUR WAY
SHUT YOUR EYES AND SAY A PRAYER
AND WHEN YOU LEAST EXPECT
IT’LL COME TO YOU”
HERE IT COMES FOR YOU

THE YEARS CLICK BY
FEELING LIKE A DAY
YOU WEAR YOUR LIFE
DOWN LIKE A SHOE
YOU CAN TRADE IT FOR A NEW ONE
TIL IT COMES TO YOU

HERE IT COMES FOR YOU

BIBLE BLACK
SHEARING GLASS
NO IDEA IF I WAS MOVING AHEAD
OR TURNING BACK

NOT FOR A MOMENT
NOT FOR AN INSTANT
DID I ASK 
"IS IT TIME TO STOP?"

CHORUS

WHEN THE WAVE 
(WHEN THE WAVE)
PULLS ME UNDER
(WHEN IT PULLS ME UNDER)
I HOLD FAST TO MYSELF
KEEP ON THRASHING

HELLO! HELLO I’M IN THE DARK WATER
ALONE! ALONE IN THE DARK WATER

I’M IN THE DARK WATER
I’M IN THE DARK WATER


"SO YOU GOT A DREAM
WHAT GOOD’S IT GONNA DO?
CHUCK IT IN THE SEA,
THEY SAY
"PICTURES OR IT NEVER HAPPENED TO YOU"
TIL IT COMES FOR YOU
THE PEOPLE BUZZ AROUND
BLEED INTO A BLUR
NO REGARD FOR ANYTHING LIVING
LIKE THE EARTH’S AN APPLE
AND WHEN WE’RE THROUGH
WE CAN START ANEW

JUST UP AHEAD
TURN MY HEAD TO THE LEFT
SEE THE TAJ MAHAL
SINKING LIKE ATLANTIS

NOT FOR A MOMENT
NOT FOR AN INSTANT
DID I ASK
“COULD THIS BE REAL?”

CHORUS
WHEN THE WAVE
(WHEN THE WAVE)
PULLS ME UNDER
(WHEN IT PULLS ME UNDER)
I HOLD FAST TO MYSELF, KEEP ON THRASHING

HELLO? HELLO I’M IN THE DARK WATER
ALONE, ALONE IN THE DARK WATER!

I’M IN THE DARK WATER
I’M IN THE DARK WATER


HEMINGWAY FEELS  YEARS AGO
CAN’T THINK HOW FAR I’VE LEFT AHEAD
BONNIE I SHOULD KNOW BETTER, I KNOW


I, I, I, I, I, 


CHORUS
WHEN THE WAVE PULLS ME UNDER
I HOLD FAST TO MYSELF KEEP ON THRASHING
WHEN THE WORLD TAKES MORE THAN YOU OFFERED
HOLD FAST TO YOURSELF, REACH OUT, DON’T WAIT

FOR IT TO COME TO YOU
REACH OUT, DON’T WAIT

HERE IT COMES FOR YOU
HERE IT COMES FOR YOU
REACH OUT, DON’T WAIT

I’M IN THE DARK WATER
I’M IN THE DARK WATER
Track Name: Paper Mache
When we're out on the road
I've seen the way the game is played
The women come
The women go
Your brothers get to stay

I said I’d sooner change the game before the game changed me
But it changed me
It changed me

It’s not like I’m the angel
There’s mistakes you'll never know i made
We go to bed with someone new
The one in the mirror stays the same
We’re both out there with our promises
Made out of paper mache
Saying we’ll cut our losses soon
And praying we’ll be the lucky few


CHORUS

I PLAYED THEIR GAME
NEVER LET IT SHOW WHEN IT WAS BREAKING ME
BREAKING MY HEART

I PLAYED THEIR GAME SO WELL
I THOUGHT ONE DAY
I'D FINALLY EARN MY TEN SECOND HEAD START


It's a cheerleader they want, baby
That’s my cue to pass on this rose
Take the lines they planned to feed me
give the understudy my role
There’ll always be
Someone pretty and young
to replace us when they're done

And they'll say
They never meant us harm

I think I’ve learned my lesson 

CHORUS
I PLAYED THEIR GAME
NEVER LET IT SHOW WHEN IT WAS BREAKING ME
BREAKING MY HEART

I PLAYED THEIR GAME SO WELL
I THOUGHT ONE DAY
I'D FINALLY GET MY TEN SECOND HEAD START

I PLAYED THEIR GAME
EVEN WHEN IT HURT SO BAD I THOUGHT
I COULDN’T MOVE ON

I PLAYED THEIR GAME SO WELL
I FOOLED MYSELF MORE THAN ONCE 
INTO THINKING I’D WON


THE GAME CHANGED ME

[You can’t outrun ‘em all]

THE GAME CHANGED ME

[you can’t outrun ‘em all]

THE GAME CHANGED ME

[you can’t outrun ‘em all]

THE GAME CHANGED ME

[you can’t outrun ‘em all]

THE GAME CHANGED ME